Month Number 4.

August makes month number 4 of being on the fertility medicine CLOMID. I have been on 50 mg tablets but this month I will begin 100 mg of Clomid a day for 5 days a month. I have a doctors appointment on the 13th for my ultrasound to once again check to see if my ovaries are measuring like they should. HOPEFULLY both ovaries are great so that I can get the hormone shots again this month. Getting those shots makes me more hopeful during this process because I know my body is working SOMEWHAT like it should.

A friend of mine recommended a book to me called Getting Pregnant. I ordered it and read the whole thing front to back in like a day. I couldnt put it down. I realize that I have to stay 100% positive because if I dont, then it truly can affect things. This month, I am going to remain positive and Im going to live stressfree. ((hopefully)).

The thing is, I have been so angry about this whole process. I never have gotten upset because a friend of mine conceived. I have grown to get used to the fact that a lot of women can get pregnant easy. It hurts though to see that people get pregnant when they dont try and then totally screw it up. Many people dont understand how LUCKY they are to have children. They take full advantage of it all. That is what kills me. I cant think about these things anymore. I am focusing on me and my wonderful husband finally getting what we've been waiting for, for so many years!!

Sooo we will see how it goes on the 13th and then we will know something on thee 29th!!

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Ok so enough baby talk for now. My husband got a phone call this morning from his supervisor at work letting him know that he will be going to Virginia for 2 weeks at the end of August for some kind of training. I know I know, 2 weeks isnt long BUT it is when I cant drive in italy and will be stranded alone w/ 2 dogs and a kitten for 2 weeks....WITHOUT my man! I cant imagine it and I dont want too. Italy is a freaky place to be alone because of the high crime and whatever. I just dont like it one bit. But thers nothing I can do about it so I have to deal with it. It would be easier if 1. I could drive here and 2. we were closer to people we know. Honestly most AMERICANS in Gaeta, Italy even cares about anyone but themselves to offer anything. Theres a few people in Naples that I actually consider my friends but thats an hour drive. Sooo I guess we will just have to make sure I have what I need here. And I guess those 2 weeks will be my SPRING cleaning weeks....I know...Im late. I will manage :)

I hope August 2010 is THE month!!
Due Date: May 7, 2011 IF we get preggo this month.